21 Days to a New Habit: The First Seven Days

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Day 1

Now I have read in the website that some manifestations take weeks or even months. So I didn’t know what to expect. Of course, there were some things that I was hoping would happen right away but then I was prepared to accept my lessons and learn to settle my energies and to allow things to unfold.

Now the kids have been nice to me all morning. Derek had a fever last night and I had contracted Divine Healers to help me perform Core Light Healing on him at around 3pm. This was election day. I didn’t want to be held up at the polling precinct at the appointed time so I waited for the Healing Session to be over. Immediately after healing, I walked over to the polling precinct and found that there were no lines for my district. There were only two voters and I was one of them. I was done in less than 10 minutes.

Now please let me back track a little because something happened right after lunch.

An old friend from the art community sends me a Facebook pm and she offers an art therapy workshop for Autism Society Philippines. Now this friend of mine spoke about this idea almost three years ago. I knew it was still going to happen but I really had no idea how. I didn’t have the resources nor was I part of the local art community. Of course, our initially idea was theatre. For this time, it’s going to be painting and sculpture to be taught by named artists along with a psychologist on board to process the students. Legit art therapy so to speak. And not just something to while the time. Three years but it’s here and it’s a complete program. Wow! It’s only been 24 hours.

And the rest of the day was just light and easy and Derek was on his way to recovery.

Day 2

Election is over and everyone is back to work. The day was easy. I still have no drama. My workout has been good. There is this twisted side angle pose that usually confounds me. Whenever I twist to the right, my hands cannot reach other across my back. On the left side they’re ok but never when I twist to the right. For today, it just happened….easily. :-)

Today I connected with some people that I normally don’t. I usually just say hi to my Aunt Baby and then I leave the room. This time, we managed a conversation over the dinner table and she called me pretty 2 or 3 times I think. It’s a miracle in itself because I rarely speak to her. I see her as a positive force but I couldn’t understand why people couldn’t approach me. It was a common phenomena growing up so I concluded that it was my personality, if not theirs. But this is a really nice observation.

Also the thought of Derek initiated into First Communion and Confirmation crossed my mind and it was ok. Fr. Ed Dura, a dear family friend was in town and I figured I’d maximize his vacation in Manila and have the ceremonies done. Now, I haven’t gone to church in almost 8 years and paid very little attention to my children’s religious education. It was a personal philosophy that people should be able to choose how they want to trek the road to spirituality. I would also get into debates sometimes about it. And here I am, totally ok with it. For a while I thought I was sick but I was really undeniably ok with it. Another case of unification of opposites, I think. :-)

Day 3

Early in the day, I get a pm from a dear friend. She was one of the first people I approached for the business but she turned me down. But we’re still friends. I receive a pm from her telling me that her son was interested in the business. Sweet. I look forward to seeing him this weekend.

My business meeting that went pretty well. There were no challenges to my suggestions for their investments. It’s going to happen and I will help facilitate the process. They just need to decide the amounts. I walk over next door where another friend owned a restaurant. She was interested and she wants me to talk to her sister who handles the finances. I didn’t push because I didn’t have my materials. I told her I would meet up with them next week.

Not bad right. I look forward to closing these deals.

I jacked up my workout and I ended up hyper in a good way. It was a challenge to get to sleep but it didn’t bother me. I recalled my anchor and envisioned myself high up into the Cosmos with Source and I was ok.

Day 4

My meeting with the foundation was today. It was only an exploratory meeting and it went well. I connected with my friend’s assistant nicely and I look forward to the next step. My trip to the Apple Service Center was as expected, a bust, but I was ok with it. I was expecting anything at all. I grab lunch to relax my aching feet and off to home I go. I did find my favorite face scrub, Angels on Bare Skin, from Lush Cosmetics while I was in the area. So the trip wasn’t a total wash out.

I was tired when I got home from walking in very high heels. I rested and eventually made a start to writing about my 21 days of developing the Lily’s Daily Maintenance Habit. What’s interesting is that I have noticed that my writing style is slightly different. Not as rushed as it usually is. I think that’s good thing :-)

Day 5

I had to spend the morning at the Out-Patient Department for my boys’ ‘rite of passage.’ Everything went interestingly smooth. We took a quick snack at Starbucks where Derek dropped his Sausage Roll. I went to the counter to get a new one and the woman before me told me that she had no issues picking it up and eating it again. I agreed with her and she understood that I didn’t want to set a bad example of eating off the floor :-) . Fortunate for me, the staff refused my payment and replaced the pastry for free with no hesitation. :-)

My OR experience was ok. Derek was being a wuss but only because Mommy was just outside the operating theatre. He relaxed when I came in and even played on the iPad as the procedure in his lower region went on. Of course, the pain settled in when the anesthesia wore off and that’s when the staff and me were panicking to comfort him. I had to rush of scrubs to go the Pharmacy and buy him pain relievers. It took a while for it to take effect and I was momentarily torn between his brother inside the OT and him crying in pain but eventually the pain relievers finally kicked in. The boys were uncomfortable with their bandages and we hand to re-do them. The line at the Billing and Cashier Section was relatively quick and we were finally out of there before lunch.

The nurses were really accommodating and caring. They showed me their ‘A’ game as they guided me throughout the entire process. So efficient and friendly. I am now, forevermore, a proud fan of Filipino Nurses.

The OPD of the hospital was impressive. It didn’t feel like I was in Manila. I have always avoided this hospital. My friends who frequent this hospital are usually the prissy ones. :-) I was resisting the idea of being called prissy but today I’ve come to appreciate the value of service and the facilities they have laid out throughout the hospital. Their management’s goal to become a world class hospital is a genuine mission.

We’re home and so far, no untoward incidents with the boys. No screaming and wincing in pain. No divo-ish demands as most patients abuse the opportunity :-) I’ve got an arsenal of pain relievers and even some recommended natural remedies to help get it all down. I will perform Core Light Healing when I’m in a more relaxed state. :-)

Super Flower Power, Activate!

Ok so I’ve been resisting to be activated as a Lily. As I have read from their website, it takes out your obstacles allowing the Law of Attraction help manifest faster and better. Ok, sounds good, right? I’ve been working on the Law of Attraction for almost 7 years and as much that I have learned more throughout the years, some of it wasn’t kicking it. Especially the big ones and those big ones pertain to my soul mission. Now, I didn’t jump into this immediately because it was pricey. I’ve gone through expensive healing workshops before and as much as they were interesting experiences, I’ll just leave them as something that’s a part of my journey. I don’t even remember using the tools I’ve learned anymore.

On top of that, I couldn’t understand why some of the people I know who have been activated were acting like elitists. They look at me as if we didn’t have crazy times together and then there is no connection. I casted it off as perhaps they were going through some issues. Yet still I didn’t want to be that kind of Lily because as far as I know there was a bigger mission for Lilies. If I were to become a Lily, I wanted to be an approachable Lily :-) Someone who could allow opposites to unite towards peace and new beginnings.

Eventually, with the help of a friend, I receive my private activation.

The aftereffect of the activation is this inexplicable giddiness. I felt like bouncing up and down with all this energy and happiness that I was part silly and part genius. Their website reads of some “detoxification” after the activation. This detox is like a healing crisis to shake off the negatives that one has unconsciously held on for so long. Some will go through illness, nausea or even diarrhea. Sounds scary for some, but I wanted to go through this detox. I wanted to feel the changes physically as I needed tangible confirmation of these changes. I was preparing myself for frequent trips to the bathroom, sluggishness or even emotional-volatility perhaps. None of these ‘grands’ happened to me.

Instead, within a few minutes of my activation, I was burping every few seconds. My burps were not the loud kind that felt like they were rising from the bellows of my abdomen. Instead, they were these short annoying burps that felt like hiccups but involved a small amount of gas belching out. Now this is really how I burp. Long drawn out sessions of annoying little burps. It usually happens after a drink of soda. But I didn’t drink any soda in this episode. I haven’t even eaten and these burps just kept going and going and going. There was also a slight pain under my collar bone that was somewhat amplified by the the burping. Something told me to lie down. When I finally got the chance when I got home, it stopped immediately, including the pain under my right collar bone.

Now I have my own personal drama.

I’m very hesitant in interacting with my family because they have been resistant with my new age vocation. I was raised as a Catholic and I was expected to die as one, especially my mother. Yet when I shifted (to Buddhism, Hinduism and among other things), it didn’t go so well. It hasn’t been for some years. So you can say that I have a strained relationship with my mother.

On the way home, I kept telling myself not to give into any drama. If ever any negative situations would arise, I told myself that I would practice compassion and acknowledge that people are coming from a place of concern even though their actions do not reflect it.

I enter my house and gamely greet my mother Happy Mother’s Day as if my issues with her were never there. My usually whiney sister-in-law puts out a joke ahead of me and I am pleasantly surprised. I enter a messy bedroom because the boys are enjoying their lazy Sunday and I put off being an alpha mom for a while because I knew that the mess will be settled later. I finish my shopping errands in 30 minutes without even a hint of panic or rush. So far, so good. It feels normal but better. I like it. We were all preparing dinner for Mother’s Day and I was hoping for a lot of fresh vegetables and healthy cooking. I bought Vietnamese spring rolls. My brother cooks chicken and beef the Korean way. My sister-in-law makes sushi casserole and a shrimp salad. My sister makes hap chae. Dessert was butter cake from Vargas Kitchen, homemade pavlova and ice cream. They even had sugar free choices for Henry. Not bad. By my family’s choices, these were pretty healthy. So far, so good.

Clarity by Zedd

They really did a good job on this song. The hook. The beats. Wonderfully danceable song. It’s great when electronic dance music gets this amount of traction from the market. It scares me that I might molest the play button on this one to the point of overkill. The vocals were top notch. Strong, Solid and Soulful. But what really captured me was it’s poetry.

High dive into frozen waves
where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain
And it’s worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash
Cause we both know how this ends
our clock ticks till it breaks your glass
And I drown in you again

Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love’s insanity why are you my clarity

walk on through a red parade
And refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground
And makes us forget all common sense
Don’t speak as I try to leave
Cause we both know what we’ll choose
If you pull, then I’ll push too deep
And I’ll fall right back to you

Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn’t need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don’t know why

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love’s insanity why are you my clarity

…Why are you my clarity
…Why are you my remedy
…Why are you my clarity
…Why are you my remedy

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love’s insanity why are you my clarity

You and I Both

Jason Mraz is a personal favorite. I don’t rave about it because a lot of other people do. :-) That’s just me. When people are going nuts about something, I go the other way. :-) This is an easy song to sing but you have to sing it with heart to give the lyrics justice. Let me just sing my heart out for a minute. Enjoy your weekend!

My Singapore Trip 2013

I’ve must have done something right. For about two weeks, things have been steady. Some going my way beautifully. Some not, but still revealing itself wonderfully. I’ve been getting closer and closer to what I’ve been trying to work on these past years. I don’t work so much on it any more so I guess that’s the trick and the only work I do is just keep myself in an optimistic mood and focus on what I want.

A combination of Abraham Hicks, Bashar, Neale Donald Walsch, Nanay Linda and perhaps a dash of Lily, I didn’t expect the big surprise I got on this trip.

Pressure had never been my strategy. I was going to keep my integrity and honesty about it and I was hoping to expect the same. I didn’t expect it in the way that it would reveal itself to me in this trip but it was just equally wonderful. It’s not a victory as there were no enemies nor competitors. It’s not an accomplishment because it’s never going to be done but rather a fulfillment of all these energies coming together. It’s quietly revving up. Winding up. The details do not matter but there is no doubt to where it leads.

A part of my being wants to scream and share its radiant light. My friends are asking me how I am and in stitches trying to keep my tongue from wagging.Things like these are hard to contain but this is what it needs to be for now.  More details have yet to reveal themselves and they are definitely running their course. No more doubts. No more fears. Just a clear vision of a beautiful journey of love, passion, faith and hope. As I restrain myself for now, it might be explosive when the cards are finally laid out.

I’m going to stay on this journey for a while and just let it drag everything else downstream, including me. Yes, Julie Andrews. I must have done something good.

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