I believe everyone I know now comes from my past life. I meditate of course. I have done tapping. I prefer herbs to allopathic drugs and I like them potent. The prospect of transitions in 2012 excite me. I listen to ‘downloads.’ I use the word ‘detox’ when I’m trying to explain that negative experiences are taking something out of me. I do the hand thing and the incense thing. Yet, I’m not a vegan though. Love it!!!!

Creativity to the greatest rebellion in existence. I think it was Osho who said that.

I’m down with a cough and cold and I’m tired of resting for the past few days. I wanted to have fun. Tonight I’m ditching my kids and I’m going to that party. Driver or no driver….It was ‘no driver’ but nevertheless, I got there early as usual. But never early enough for chaos that happened that night.

Few of our classmates came with their spouses. It was a real pleasure to have a face attached to names. As unescorted as I was that night (my usual escort is Derek), I had no problems I wanted to stay longer and I wanted to have fun. And hilarity was brimming up to the rafters.

The ridiculously funny white elephant games were just warm-ups. This is where we all got physical. I remember being squished for some pair of slippers (or something) that I wasn’t even aiming for LOL. No matter how cheesy or cheap the presents were, it was loads of fun fighting over them. The grabbing certainly added value to the gifts. And we weren’t even drunk yet.

Our loud voices and cachinations trembled Kawilihan Village as we played Pinoy Genyo. We had so much fun here, I’m at a loss for words.

Not a single one of us left that party empty-handed. Everybody had pirate booty topped with Teresita’s re-production of our HS graduation video, from Betamax format to DVD. Each one of us got a copy. We were all floored and anxious as fear of having that video posted online looms. LOL

By 11:30, my mommy radar was on full alert and I had to make the first exit at midnight. True enough, Derek was still awake waiting for me in the living room getting ready to sleep on the couch. Something seemed to be bothering him but he went to sleep quickly.

In spite of being early, I couldn’t sleep. I had fun but I wasn’t wired. I kept moving around in bed and figured that someone must be thinking about me. I turn on my notebook to go online to help me fall asleep. Logging on to Facebook, I see my friends chatting away about Teresita’s video for us. They were watching as they were chatting and I joined along the chat (I don’t like TV in my room and my notebook didn’t have a drive).

Here’s the craziness that followed…

Tini Abadicio
Dennis! I left my prizes! Set sugar and creamer and rose petal bowls! Can you keep it for me? Sorry ha! Thanks! Mwah!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Wala na. Pinaghati-hatian na namin!

Dennis Rayala
Tini: Haha! Yup nakita ko nga…will hand it over sa jan 7 reunion
Tere: Haha! pwede pwede!
Kaya

Irow Bowside
tere!! you’re home safe!!!
hehe

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Yup! Hinatid ako ni Meme sa haus!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
Dennis dear… grabe, wonders never cease! I had such a BLAST. super super thank youuuuu >♥<

to all you generous, fun-loving souls… may 20 be the year where you realise your long-lost dreams, make new ones, relinquish those that cannot absolutely be good for you (make them like white elephants… throw them away!)…

spread love, live love, be love.

'til we meet again!

Irow Bowside
Dennis!! Thanks so so so much!! Happy New Year to all!! It was a great party!! Love it love it!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
anabs… it wasn’t complete until you came (we missed edgar, too! he was partying elsewhere in UP diliman! hahaha yes, edgar, i stalked your profile na)

Irow Bowside
AMEN to that Lara!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Oo, nga… Salamat ng marami, Denn! At sa mga nagpakana ng mga palaro… Sa susunod, isinusumpa kong hindi na ako talunan sa Pinoy Henyo!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
Hahaha tere, dapat may tambiolo, may spin-a-wheel, may sex bomb dancers!

anabs, dragon year for the dragon boat team! woohooooo

Irow Bowside
Ako din!! TINI!!!! Mag practice tayo!! Sa susunod kasi, manuod na ng news!!!
hehehe…salamat Lara!! mag dilang ANGHEL ka sana!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Lara: Nawa’y magkatotoo ang mga sinabi mo… parang may mga para sa kin don. Hehehe…]

Lara Katrina Tajonera
para sa ating lahat yon… i’m just an aura reader, y’know

Lara Katrina Tajonera
ang sarap ng gift games hahaha

akala ko makakabingwit ako ng mga pang white elephant na regalo from our party… alam niyo bang… HINDI!!! kaya kailangan kong BUMILI na lang ng white elephant gifts! hahaha

Irow Bowside
Truly, super enjoy ang party!! sumakit lang tyan ko sa dami ng kinain ko…di ko na tinantanan ang cheese, grapes, honeyed walnuts!! Yummmmm!!
Tini!! Balik mo sa akin ang BOOK ko!!
hehehe

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kasi naman, alan… ang mahal ng reunion nyo! (haha feeling naman ako na pupunta)

kung kailangan mong may kakanta ng bayang magiliw tapos may honorarium (hahaha feeling pero siryoso pa rin ang sumusunod), lemme know, i can get a choir together for that

di ba puedeng magpa subsidise?

Dennis Rayala
Lara, Tere, Anabs, you’re all welcome! Alam ninyo naman na bigay todo tayo pag may gathering tayo ang saya nga ng white elephant and gift grabbing! salamat to Lara and June for making the event extra fun for all!

Irow Bowside
aysus Lara, sa asawa mo ikaw mag pa-subsidize!!

Dennis Rayala
Nanonood pa ako ng high school graduation natin at medyo hindi ako makatulog sa tuwa!

Irow Bowside
JUNE!! Panalo ang games!!! Panalo kami ni Ruthie Pie!! hahahaha…huli man daw…WAGI pa din!! hahahaha…Ano kaya yun?!!
Basta masaya!!
Hope I can attend the reunion

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Uy, Denn, tigilan mo na panonood nyan… baka bangungutin ka.
Tsunami galore!

Dennis Rayala
di ba OK yung gift ni Tere sa ating lahat? bwahaha!!! ipakita ninyo sa mga anak/pamangkin/boyfriend/girlfriend, etc.!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
anabs, siyempre si ruben tiyak pupunta yan… ako saling cat-cat lang.

Irow Bowside
naku…ako, ihahanda ko sarili ko sa makikita ko…parang di ko pa kaya!!
Aysus Lara, basta pumunta ka! (kala mo ako talagang pupunta ohhhh!!) hahaha

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ipakita na sa mga anak… pruweba yan na once upon a time, e mga seksi at macho tayo!

Irow Bowside
HUH??!!! No no no…ok na ako..ok na ako ngayon, di ko na kailangan pakita pa yan…pati ako ma-nightmare!!

Dennis Rayala
bwahahaha!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha si anabs buo ang loob sa sarili… attagirl!
Dennis Rayala
i upload kaya natin sa youtube?

Irow Bowside
just remembered…WALA AKONG ANAK!!! hehe

Lara Katrina Tajonera
ten minute max lang sa you tube… 9 parts yan!

Irow Bowside
Densio!!! DOn’t you dare!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Denn! WAGGGGGGGGG naman, pLSSSSSSSSS!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
denns, upload mo na pics natin

Dennis Rayala
bwahahaha! post ko video clips lang ng mga naka sama dito sa thread!

Irow Bowside
hinahanda ko pa nga sarili ko para panoorin MAG-ISA!! I-post mo pa sa youtube!! syete naman oh!!

Dennis Rayala
lara…sure! inaayos ko lang
ok yun anabs…para general patronage! hahaha!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
I forgot to tell you, I converted it to a format UN-UPLOADABLE to youtube!!! Maniwala ka kaya?

Irow Bowside
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…. BANGUNGOT!!!!!
HINDIIIIIII!!!!

Dennis Rayala
ipaayos ko sa office Tere para ma pa upload! hahaha!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Leche! Dapat inedit out ko ung mga shots ko…

Irow Bowside
Hindi gagawin ni Tere yan!! Pareho kaming na-tsunami nung panahon na yun|!!

Dennis Rayala
bwahahaha!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
I had the power in my hands….

Irow Bowside
bwahaha ka dyan!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
and now, it’s in yours…

Irow Bowside
Naku Tere!! Kasalanan mo yan!!

Melody Samson Eusebio
house na ako teresita bibitah!!!

Irow Bowside
Nanginginig kamay ko … habang ipinapasok ko sa CD drive
then I decided…I CANNOT!!!! Nooooooo!!! Whaaaaaaa

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Me: Good! Thanx for the ride.

Cristina Estampador
Haba na ng chat

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Annabs: Nilinlang ako ni dennis…

Dennis Rayala
pinakita ko sa mga kasambahay namin…sabi nila…sila ate ruth ba yun?! si ate melody?! si ate tere?! naku si ate annabelle?! hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Di masaya sila LOL

Irow Bowside
Nooooooooooooooooooooo

Dennis Rayala
ang mga hair style daw! hahaha!

Irow Bowside
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
Noooooooooooooo

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha ano ba ang tsunami?

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Naku! Kita mo na, sa bahay pa lang, ginagawa na tayong katatawanan!

Irow Bowside
TSUNAMI!!! Bakit….meron sila nun??!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
dennis, kamo, inggit lang sila kasi hindi sila kasing tangkad nyong lahat! hahaha

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
I-uupload pa!

Dennis Rayala
ipakita natin sa January 07!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha yari kayo sa jan 7!!! >:D

Irow Bowside
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
HINDI ako pupunta!!!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ikaw din, Annabs, meron ka nun!

Cristina Estampador
Ano ka?! Inggit nila!

Dennis Rayala
lara: nakakatuwa lang ang mga reaction nila…gulat na somewhat amazed! hahaha

Lara Katrina Tajonera
amazed? or horrified? hahaha loko lang, anabs… parang sobrang traumatised si irow, e

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Punyeta! Dapat di ko na pinagpuyatan ang DVDng yan! Yan pa pala ang magdudulot ng kahihiyan sa atin!!

Irow Bowside
Sandali….na-NIGHTMARE ako ng GISING!!!

Cristina Estampador
LOL

Dennis Rayala
hahahaha!
pinanood mo na cristy?

Irow Bowside
TERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEE

Dennis Rayala
meme panoorin mo!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
actually, from an “objective” viewer tulad ko… nakatutuwa talaga siyang tingnan… pero yung tipong… interesting lang sa inyo kasi nandon kayo. hahaha

Irow Bowside
Hoy Cristy!! makisama ka!!

Cristina Estampador
Hindi pa! Hindi ko kaya!

Irow Bowside
Hindi ko din kaya!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
panalow ang dance number nina alan at anthony

Cristina Estampador
Kaya pala di ako maktulog. Parang nangkukulam kayo LOL

Irow Bowside
mag new-new year noh!!! ayoko naman salubungin ang New Year ng isang BANGUNGOT!!!

Cristina Estampador
Anong dance number?
Yung waltz?

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Waltz, Cristy… di na malinaw yung tugtog.

Cristina Estampador
Di ba kasama si Ruben dun?

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Panalo ang posing Annette sa ending ng sayaw!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
merong mala-jazz or ballet na number… may mga choreo pa na tumatalon talon ang girls… tapos may mga stretching pa of the arms na parang michelangelo sa sistine chapel ceiling… hahaha

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Pose ni Annette

Irow Bowside
Hoy DENSIO (Note: Densio, ang tawag ko hindi dennis) umayos-ayos ka!!

Cristina Estampador
Leche! Wala akong DVD dito!

Dennis Rayala
i projector natin sa January 07!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
anabs, matangkad ka sa video… heels or hair?

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Cristy, it should play on ur computer.

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha nag e enjoy ang lolo dennis to the max sa inyong horror

Irow Bowside
parang safe ako sa mga sayaw-sayaw na yan…hindi ako marunong nun..kaya wala ako dun!

Cristina Estampador
I don’t have a drive.

Lara Katrina Tajonera
tere, talagang gusto mong di gumaling si cristy, ano? hahaha

Dennis Rayala
yup cristy…am watching it now using my laptop

Cristina Estampador
This is a notebook kasi

Irow Bowside
di pa uso heels sa akin nun…kaya….its my TSUNAMI hairdo!!!
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Cristina Estampador
Sa totoo memorized ko pa yung dance na yun

Dennis Rayala
ang tindi pala ng mga hairspray ninyo! hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
What are you complaining about? I look like Billy Ray Cyrus

Dennis Rayala
cristy: hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Aqua Net pa ang uso nun

Irow Bowside
Bwahahahaha

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Sige, Cristy, i-deo ka natin sumasayaw uli. Itabi natin dun sa luma. Before and after!

Irow Bowside
kung ano ang limp ng hair ko ngayon…mala tidal wave noon!!!

Cristina Estampador
Haha si Alan ang partner ko!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
i-video… ano ba yan?

Dennis Rayala
at ang ruth…naka madonna gloves pa!

Irow Bowside
ngeeee

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Tama! Dapat may performance next year… Same dance!

Dennis Rayala
like a virgin!

Irow Bowside
sori…out ako dyan
ngeeee

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Si Annabelle din kaya, naka-gloves!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha panalow din ang glabz ni ruthie

Irow Bowside
Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Dennis Rayala
talaga? hindi ko napansin! i freeze ko nga si annabelle!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
leather glabz? or putiiiii?

Cristina Estampador
hahaha 25 years and 100 lbs later!
Puti!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
dennis, you are SOOOOO naughty!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
putiiiiii!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha anabs, napansin ang iyong hand fashion

Cristina Estampador
Guys, pati yung speech ni Annette nandyan?
Ang haba nun I remember LOL

Lara Katrina Tajonera
si ruben ba nandyan sa mga kuha? basta all i know is puro siya BUHOK non. mas tsunami pa sa yo, anabs

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Yes… pero putol-putol ang kuha.

Irow Bowside
Whaaaaaaaaaaa….Nooooooooooo…napag-usapan ata namin nila Ruthie yan glabzzz na yan!!

Dennis Rayala
Lara: hahahaha! i pa pa convert ko to picture then blow up natin bawat isa sa video as a remembrance!

Cristina Estampador
LOL

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Anak ng Teteng! Ang dami mo pang plano, Den!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha dennis, i believe you CAN and WILL do exactly that!!! hahahaha

Dennis Rayala
and i believe i will bwahahaha!

Irow Bowside
Naku….wag kayong ganyan..bad yang mga jokis na yan!!!

Cristina Estampador
Ano pa nakikita niyo?!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha hindi daw pupunta ang ruben sa reunion… so i guess hindi ko makikita ang labour of MIRTH ni dennis

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Annabs, punta ka kila den… magnet lang ang katapat nyan.

Irow Bowside
Wala…ako mukhang di ko talaga kayang panoorin!!

Cristina Estampador
Annabs: Baka gamitin ni Peping against the dragon boat team yung video na yan LOL

Irow Bowside
mag-aakyat bahay ako kina Dennis!!!
@cristy: naku, di ako lalaban dun…panalo na agad sya!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Sige, Annabs, sabihan mo ko… I will tell you what to do.

Dennis Rayala
i test ninyo sa family reunion ninyo sa january 01 kung ano reaction nila…hehehe..im sure matutuwa naman sila

Irow Bowside
ayyyy..HINDE!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
cristy! schoolmate ko si luisa matti dati… but since upperclassman siya, di niya siguro ako naaalala.

at sa iba… grabe, halos pala naka timeline na kayong lahat! e nangangampanya pa naman ako na gawing optional na lang yun ng fezbuuuuk

Irow Bowside
LECH!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hahaha dennis o di kaya’y ikasusuklam

Dennis Rayala
annabs: hahahah!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ako, lara, hindi pa.

Irow Bowside
Dennis..PAKUKULAM kita!!!

Dennis Rayala
si ruth daw…pinapanood na ng mga anak niya yung video natin as we speak! kawawang mga bata!

Cristina Estampador
Hahaha!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
ako dapat hindi talaga, tere, naloko lang ako ni mark zuckerberg. akala ko “try” lang yung button… yun pala point of no return! nakakahilo ang timeline, parang myspace

Irow Bowside
hahaha…dapat sa umaga nya pinanuod…baka ma-nbightmare ang mga bata??!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Pinagpupuyatan talaga!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha akala ata ni ruth oct 31… wrong holiday! hahaha

Dennis Rayala
tawa nga daw ng tawa ang mga supling!

Cristina Estampador
LOL

Irow Bowside
ano yun Horror-comedy?!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
supling? diba nauna si ruth sa inyong lahat magkaron ng chikiting? e di adult tawa na yan… so alaskadong tawa! hahaha

Cristina Estampador
One of those times, I’m fortunate to have ASD kids at wala silang pakialam!!!!

Dennis Rayala
hahaha!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
wait, what’s the difference between ADD, ADHD, and ASD?

Cristina Estampador
Mahaba yan ano ba?!
Ibang lecture na yan

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Iniiba lang nya usapan…

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kahit yung ibig sabihin lang… wala bang one line summary differentiation? hahaha

Cristina Estampador
Balik sa video
wala!!!

Irow Bowside
hahahaha

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Hahaha!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
okies okies… o ishy lang… nagtatanong lang poooo

Cristina Estampador
Balik Balik!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Hahaha uli!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
tingnan mo? may ADHD din ang mga tao dito hahaha

Irow Bowside
MAG-SORRY KA LARA!! hahahaha

Dennis Rayala
si carolyn yadao…kumakanta pala!

Cristina Estampador
LOL!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
teka baka i “hellurrrr” ako ni cristy! hahaha

Cristina Estampador
That’s funny!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Dennis, oo nga… di ko lang alam kung may lumalabas na boses!

Irow Bowside
huh??!!! are you kidding??!!! Si yadao??!!

Cristina Estampador
ano yung hellurr?

Dennis Rayala
oo!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
it’s hello with mapungay eyes hahaha

Irow Bowside
mas malakas pa boses ng bubwit dito sa amin kesa kay Yadao

Dennis Rayala
hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Hindi naman, Lara. Mas gusto ko lang pagtawanan ang mga kaibigan ko.

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Di ba Haller yun?

Dennis Rayala
annabs! ipakita mo sa team mates mo!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
LOL anabs re: bubwit

Dennis Rayala
para ba inspirational movie!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Waaaaaaaah! Di ka na nila irerespeto, Annabs!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
oo, puede rin, cristy. haller, hellur, wehhh! hahaha

Dennis Rayala
Tere: hahahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Inspired to do what? Dennis

Irow Bowside
wala akong TEAMMATES!! Atletes ko mga yun!! mga military pa!! gusto mo bang barilin ako nun?!!!

Dennis Rayala
Lara: ipakita ninyo sa boys ninyo yung video ng daddy nila!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
sabihin mo na lang, anabs, sa kanila… pag magaling kayong mag row, tataas hair nyo tulad nang sa akin! gold medal to death!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Humanda na kayo at ang buong bansa sa pagkatalo. Ma-dedemoralize ang coch ng dragon boat!

Cristina Estampador
Di ka kayang barilin

Dennis Rayala
bwahahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Matatawa nalang ang mga athletes. The video is enough punishment LOL

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha sige ba, dennis! pero parang walang kuha ata si ruben e don sa nakita ko

Dennis Rayala
cristy: inspirational movie ni annabs para sa athetes niya…ganyan ako noon…ganito ako ngayon..o di ba? hahaha!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Lara: Baka lalong di na sila mag-row… tingin mo magusgustuhan nila ganong hairdo?

Dennis Rayala
meron si ruben!

Irow Bowside
naku…naku…parang sumasakit na ulo ko!!! DENSIO!!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Konti lang shots ni Ruben… sa sabitan lang yata ng medalya.

Irow Bowside
HAYUFFFFFFF!!!!!

Dennis Rayala
tapos the next day…naka hairdo na similar kay annabs yung mga athlete niya as a sign of support! hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
LOL!!!
gloves to match

Irow Bowside
Tere!!! Talagang ikaw na…ikaw na ang sisisihin ko!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ang dami mo pa namang shots, annabs. Nasa front row ka kasi dun sa mga song numbers.

Dennis Rayala
tama ka cristy!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Mea Culpa!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
ROFL LMAO

Cristina Estampador
At least madidistract ang competition. Panalo na!

Dennis Rayala
si annabs and cris…pataasan talaga ng hairdo nila!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
hindi lang keri ang drop waist na gown sa boat

Dennis Rayala
cristy: hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Ano kaya ang effective ingredient ng aqua net?

Irow Bowside
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Lara Katrina Tajonera
pero in fairview, anabs, kung anong payat mo non, ganon pa rin ngayon. sa buhok lang nagkatalo. sabihin mo na lang sa team na pinasuot ka ng wig na ermats mo

Cristina Estampador
Look at bright side, Annabs. Everyone on your team is happy hehehe

Irow Bowside
Sabihin ko sa kanila…kung di sila magdadaan sa ganyang hairdo…hindi sila gagaling mag-coach na tulad ko!!! LECH!!!!

Cristina Estampador
LOL

Dennis Rayala
ang may kasalanan ng lahat na ito…si carol tang! hahaha! sa kanyan kasi yung original betamax video!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Cristy: Same stuff as Cameron Diaz put in her hair sa There’s Something About Mary.

Cristina Estampador
Ginawang initiation yung hair do!
TEre! LOL!!

Irow Bowside
WWWWHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAA

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kaya pala no show si carol kanina… lynch mob inabot niya with anabs at the head of it all hahaha

Irow Bowside
Naku….grabe…if I only knew!!!

Cristina Estampador
This is so funny! I’m posting this on my blog! LOL

Edgar A. De Jesus
sorry for not being able to pass by. I have a feeling from the replies here that as always you guys had fun at Dennis’ place. hehehe

Maaga akong nakauwi actually and was thinking of passing by kaso medyo bangenge na ako sa alak and decided against it.

Upload na video at pics!

Irow Bowside
Tere!!! Pano ka ba nabola ni Dennis?!!!

Dennis Rayala
gagawin kong screensaver ang mga solo shots na makukuha ko sa video!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
(i can’t believe i actually KNOW 90% of the people you’re talking about in your video! i feel so PART of vsf 86! violins playing… pang distract)

Cristina Estampador
WE ARE NOT UPLOADING THE GRAD VIDEO!!!
Excel gising pa!
You added Misael Excel Velasco to the conversation.

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Magbotohan na lang, o!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
edgar, the video you will see uploaded… is your high school graduation!

you should have bangenge’d your way to dennis’ place! so many purty prizes!!!

Dennis Rayala
edgar! sayang! sana humabol ka! may regalo sa iyo si tere…isang dvd video…mas matindi pa kaysa hayden kho video scandal!

Cristina Estampador
LOL
The lawsuits!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha hayden kho!!! dennis, nakita mo na yung doggy style sex video ni ramgen at janelle??? wicked!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Denn! Kala ko lab mo ko?
Irow Bowside
Haay naku Lara…isasama mo pa si Edgar…maganda na ngang napunta sa amin ni Ruth ang mga huling regalo!!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
pang pa stress, actually… di mo yon makakayanan, i swear!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Baka makatanggap na ko ng death threats!

Dennis Rayala
lara: hindi ko nakita yun!
tere: love love you my friend! hahaha!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kung ok lang sa iyo, sa inyo, post ko dito yung link. bwahahaha pero x rated siya. hehe

Dennis Rayala
ang video pala natin…makakarating sa states!

Edgar A. De Jesus
LOLz!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
malas na lang ni edgar… hahaha i LOVED my stash of gifts!!! soooo purty

Misael Excel Velasco
Waaahhhh … Tulog na po tayo

Irow Bowside
Tereeeeeeeee…..sa iyo nagpapasalamat si DENSIO!!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
nako… pag makita ni jolyn yan… patay na!!! hahaha

Dennis Rayala
hahaha!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Denn, kita mo na? Kita mo na?

Cristina Estampador
LOL!!!

Irow Bowside
I love my gifts noh!! kahit ISA lang natira sa akin!!!
huhuhuhuh

Dennis Rayala
baka murahin ako ni jolyn pag pinadala ko sa kanya! hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Don’t forget Mon!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha sorry annabs… ang ganda ng mobile holder!!! sooo cute

Dennis Rayala
oo ipapadala natin sa kanila Lara! DHL express delivery pa! bwahahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Annabs: tapos tung video pa no? tsk tskk

Irow Bowside
Naku…TERE!!!! magparamdam ka!! Gawan mo ng paraan!!!
Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez added Jolyn Cayaba Abando and Mon Sales to the conversation.

Lara Katrina Tajonera
oist, libra pa kung LBC until jan 6! hahaha

Cristina Estampador
Excel!!!

Dennis Rayala
Annabs: hahaha!

Cristina Estampador
Gising be sila Jolyn?

Dennis Rayala
Magandang suggestion yan Lara!

Misael Excel Velasco
Korek

Lara Katrina Tajonera
excel file for the poll, cristy? i upload mo dito! kaya!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Naku, si Jolyn lang yata ang matutuwa sa video natin!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha tere

Dennis Rayala
Tere: hahahaha!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kaya nga sabi ko siya ang magmumudmod non e hahaha

Cristina Estampador
What poll?

Irow Bowside
LARA: Grrrrrrrrrrrrr….that was my last “wanted” grabber Jift noh!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
what excel? hahaha

Dennis Rayala
Excel: ipapadala namin sa iyo copy ng high school graduation video natin!

Cristina Estampador
Kailang mag skype tayo pag pinanood nila

Irow Bowside
TERE: Pa-hire na ako ng akyat bahay….talagang immediate na ang need!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
sorry anabs… i lost the slippers, too… and i couldn’t get lucky with the cards… laging odd… gusto kong bingwitin yung drinking dice ni anthony… at yung isang daan ni dennis… at yung at yung at yung…………

Cristina Estampador
International terrorism na ba, Annabs? LOL

Lara Katrina Tajonera
pero panalo pa rin ang mga panty sa white elephant. LYCRA! sosyal!

Cristina Estampador
LOL!!!
Couldn’t believe someone actually wanted it

Lara Katrina Tajonera
and the best words sa pinoy henyo… Bocaue, Bulacan!!! hahaha anobezzzz

Lara Katrina Tajonera
sabi sa yo e… someone else’s treasure! tini was so excited about them… she forgot about her other prizes! hahaha

Cristina Estampador
hahaha! I should have brought all of it pala!

Misael Excel Velasco
Oo ba den …
Go go go

Irow Bowside
Naku!! mga pro talaga ang i-hire!! Ibalik nga ang 100 pesoses!! pambayad ko lang…kanino ba napunta?!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kay dennis napunta ang 100. yun ang pambabayad niya sa gagawa ng pictures from the video hahaha

Dennis Rayala
sa akin ang 100!
ikalat natin sa quiapo!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha pag ganon… viral yan agad!

Dennis Rayala
ibalik ang mga hairstyle ng yesteryears!

Irow Bowside
Si Tini nag grab ng aking book!! Grrrrrrrrrrrr…hehe

Lara Katrina Tajonera
i can’t believe people wanted that book, too! wheeee
parang kayo ni tere yung minalas don sa grab a gift hehe

Irow Bowside
whaaaaaaaaaaaa….
DENSIO!! Sus mio…parang awa mo na!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Kasalanan ni Cristy! Kinuha lahat ng gifts ko! Pati mga pantali sa nag-iisa kong anak, pinitik pa!

Cristina Estampador

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Di ba, puro boys anak mo Cristy?

Cristina Estampador
Para sa aso

Irow Bowside
ano ba kasing white elephant na yan!! di ko na-gets ang messages sa Phezbuk!! di tuloy ako nakasali!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Dennis, ibalik ang mga hairstyles kasama ng mga pantali ko!!!

Cristina Estampador
300+ message na to

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Kawawang Maxine, naagawan ng mga aso… Tsskk..Tsk…

Dennis Rayala
mag post ako snapshots ng video ha:-)

Lara Katrina Tajonera
bwahahaha pantali ng buhok para sa aso amp!!!
denns, wag mo na lang i tag si anabs, baka himatayin

Cristina Estampador
DOn’t we have enough grad pics on FB already?

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ako na lang Den. Kasunduan na lang, di ako kasali sa ipo-post!

Cristina Estampador
LOL

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Do we have grad pics posted?

Lara Katrina Tajonera
sayang anabs! i usually bring extra presents for white elephant but forgot to do that this time!
yes, tere, on dennis’ timeline

Irow Bowside
naku Lara, parang nagkakaroon na ako ng attack…now na!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
more like photos from your yesteryears

Cristina Estampador
CPR!!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
pump pump *breathe
pump pump *breathe

Irow Bowside
sumisikip na dibdib ko Densio!!!

Cristina Estampador
Kulang sa prize si Annabs! Dali!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
pantali daw ng buhok, ayos na siya hahaha

Cristina Estampador
Ay
LOL

Lara Katrina Tajonera

Irow Bowside
ayyyyyyyyy…HINDE!!! panalo kami ni Ruthie pie nung huli!! Bwahaha

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Hindi! Akin yung pantali!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
ano ba yung grand prize nung no look game? ano nakuha nyo ni ruth?

Cristina Estampador
Laki nang issue with the pantali. Can we go back to making fun of each other?

Irow Bowside
sandali..sandali…TERESITA BIBE!!! Inaaliw mo ata ako…ngayon ko lang napansin ang PROFILE PIC mo!!!!

Cristina Estampador
I can give you the pantali, Tere! But not the shirt

Lara Katrina Tajonera
haha anabs… you’ve been under a rock!

Cristina Estampador
Ano ka? Kami din no?!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ano ba ang gabing ito? Maraming scandal???

Irow Bowside
AHA!!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
haha tere…. mag kwento ka naaaaa

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Ayaw! Pantali na lang ulit pang-usapan natin!

Irow Bowside
aber aber!! Ano mga kaguluhang ito BIBE?!!! (NOTE: I called you by your last name)

Lara Katrina Tajonera
konting ray charles muna…

Together again
My tears have stopped fallin
The long lonely nights
Are now at an end
The key to my heart
You hold in your hand
And nothing else matters
We’re together again

Together again
The grey skies are gone

You’re back in my arms
Now where you belong
The love that we knew
Is living again
And nothing else matters, Baby
We’re together again

Well, nothing else matters, Baby
We’re together again

( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/ray-charles-lyrics/together-again-lyrics.html )
TOGETHER AGAIN Lyrics – RAY CHARLES
www.elyrics.net
Ray Charles Together Again lyrics : Together again My tears have stopped fallin The long lonely nights Are now at an end The key to my heart You hold in …
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Cristina Estampador
Happy thoughts people! Let’s go back to dissing each other’s hair

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Nawawala ang Lolo Densio! Abangan nyo mga litrato nung grad… bubulaga na lang yan anytime!

Cristina Estampador
Lara: This is not x-rated!!!

Irow Bowside
Tsk tsk…anyways…Malalaman ko din yan!! Kaya pala Grabbers ka ng grabbers ng T-shirt ni Cristy!!!!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Pilya ka talaga, Lara!
Ikaw din, Annabs!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
nako parang christmas lanes… na divert na tayo ni bibe! hahaha

Cristina Estampador
Lara: You promised!!! LOL

Lara Katrina Tajonera
kaya nga tahimik si dennis… mabilis mac niya… processing na yung feekchyurs

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Di ako! Si Annabs!

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Tulugan na!

Irow Bowside
Aba aba!!! Eh, kaya pala napansin ko!! Malaki naman ang t-shirt, bakit grab ka ng grabbbbbbbb!!!!

Cristina Estampador
wavelength talaga! Night night! Check out na lang ang mga timeline ninyo tomorrow!

Irow Bowside
GOODNI|GHT all!! Tere, may utang kang kwentishes!!!!

Lara Katrina Tajonera
o tribute sa inyong HS vid
Aqua Net Moment.JPG

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Masarap pang ituloy ang kwentuhan… Bukas na uli! Good nyt people! Thank you for a fun-filled evening!

Jolyn Cayaba Abando
HELLOOOOOOOOO!!!! talaga naman di agad ako inadd lol oy may nagmention ng name ko pero sa haba ng mga thread di ko alam kung good or bad

Tini Abadicio
@Dennis: Ok, thanks, will retrieve my ill-gotten gains on Jan 7, hehe! I really enjoyed myself yesterday, thanks for arranging (and paying!) for it!
@Tere: Langhiya ka! Akin yon! Hehe!
@Annabs: Sige, practice tayo!

Anthony Melissa Ann Foronda
salamat sa paghost at invite. Greatest 20 school reunion party for me. Ang saya at ang sarap. Sabi ng exgf ko ang kukulit daw natin. Sabi ko conservative pa tayo nun. Hehehe. Well done, gamemasters and host den. A blessed and blissful 20 to all!

Dennis Rayala
Na post na yung pics! Susunod yung clips sa HS reunion video!!!

Tini Abadicio
hehe! Don’t do it, Den. Payong kaibigan lang naman

Cristina Estampador
Oh no! The bloodbath begins! LOL

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Denn: Ang saya nung pictures kagabi! Utang na loob lang, pwede po bang pakitanggal ang mga litrato kong nag-bibisyo at baka makita ng mga kamag-anak ko! Masisira ang reputasyon ng lola! Pls. lang!

Jolyn Cayaba Abando
ha,ha,ha…. ano ba Tere 40 na tayo pwede ka ng magloko! LOL

June Manuel Pena
Thanks Den, for being such a wonderful host. Had a wonderful time last night:) salamat sa bonggang-bonggang prizes!

Cristina Estampador
Anong reputasyon ba pinaguusapan natin?

Maxine Tere Bibe Enriquez
Nagloloko naman… gusto lang maging discreet. Hehehe…

Dennis Rayala
Hindi ko pa ma upload video clips ng HS graduation…kaya pictures na lang! hehehe enjoy! naka tag kayo!

Cris Villanueva Bucog
Oh no Den! You really posted the HS Grad pix! Gosh!!!

As my last post was about post-Christmas blues, it continues with a head cold coming on. Yet in spite of I always try to lift things up with optimism and a smile but something was wrong today. Something told me not enjoy things too much and not let me guard down.

I had scheduled this presentation with Joan a long time ago and tonight she was finally coming. I had to be at the office. When she got to the office, her guard was up I could tell but I still wanted to help her. If she saw the merit of the business then it would be great, if not then maybe at another time. I had to take a chance.

As I was enjoying the group reports, we move on to general training which I was looking forward to. Wacky is a good speaker. He knows how to motivate. It is not a surprise that he is the last GT trainer for the year-ed salvo. I took my usual place at the aisle seat of the last row along with my team. In a sea of black, I was a standout in my bright pink cozy. Decked with pink make-up I was noticeable for sure. Not that it was my intention.

I get into the groove on his topic tonight. It’s not different from the optimism I usually advocate. It goes with what I believe in. And then he says the ‘A’ word….Autistic.

I can normally take the ‘A’ word but to use it to define something undesirable took me by surprise. I think shock is the proper word. He said that we should prescribe to a realistic vision rather than an autistic vision. As if Satoshi Tajiri, Temple Grandin, Dan Akroyd and Adam Young of Owl City had no vision nor purpose.

As feisty as I can be, this wasn’t the time nor place nor was I at the right state of mind to say anything. He used the word negatively two times. I can barely remember the exact sentences but my vision suddenly clouded up when I heard the audience chuckle at the expenses of helpless people who were not even inside the room. In my helplessness, I stood up angry and walked out. In my distress, I could not speak. I am capable of lashing the harshest words that renders people weak but being dramatic in front of a group of people whom I value and be the center of attention was the least of my goals.

I opted to leave in haste. I hear his apology over the mic but I’m moving too fast. By the time I reached the elevator, I realized I couldn’t leave because my friend, Joan, was at the presentation. Tony runs after me to assure me that I will get my apology. At that point of my episode, an apology wasn’t what I needed yet. I needed to release my anger and the hurt I felt. I am my children’s voice and I failed tonight.

I choose to stay far away from the training room. I sat on the reception desk, even more helpless. The tears roll down my cheeks and Tony holds my hand to give me assurance. I reciprocate to show my appreciation for his gesture but this was my problem and not his.

I needed to cry a little harder and so I run to the ladies’ room with no tissues and Kat catches me in my distraught. The sweetheart that she is, she gives me a hug and gives me the space I needed. I stay a few more minutes crying on the floor but Kimmy sees me as she sets up for the night. I had now concluded in my head that I was an emotional wreck and more tissues are in order. I go back in to get my wallet so I can run for a set of tissues at the convenience store across the street. I thought a 100 sheets would do the trick.

I return to my spot on the reception desk and chose to listen to Wacky’s training as the tears continue. I couldn’t stop them. A dozen scenarios and thoughts where running through my head as I pretended to keep a straight face. People pass by not knowing what to do for me. They smile or they wonder. Do I speak for my kids now and present myself as an uptight bitch? Or do I keep showing my vulnerability at the risk of being called a ‘drama queen’? I do not hate him. I hated the lack of what he knew. He was a person I looked up to which made the whole episode unbearable.

Joan’s presentation ends and I wrap things up with her before taking her to her terminal. On our way out, He approaches me to apologize and I made excuses for my vulnerability. I accept his apology and he accepts my need for space. It’s clearly not the end of it for me but at least it begins my journey towards healing.

As an advocate for special needs people, I still believe God doesn’t make mistakes. That every trial is to bring out the goodness inside of us. If people could only see the wonder and love I see in my children’s eyes. Living with Autism is like reaching for a star. I’m fortunate because I have two stars to reach for and they teach me the goodness of that which I am. My journey with my kids has allowed me to see a world far more expansive than my physical senses can only barely fathom.

It’s been 24 hours and I still can’t stop the tears every time I remember. I make efforts throughout the day to keep my spirits up. In my weakness, I opted to post it on our group’s Facebook page with RayMay’s YouTube on the word “retarded.” I posted with no hate but rather just for atonement for my failure to defend my children and others who have been marginalized because of ‘labels.’ I just hope they choose to see it as something positive. Hopefully with that, my healing is faster as well.

In spite of my tears, I am still optimistic about this episode. For what, I can only leave that to the Universe with great faith.

I woke up sluggish from eating too much holiday fare and sleeping late as the boys refused to go to bed and chose to play with their toys a little longer. I woke up early for yoga but Derek wouldn’t let me. And so I ended up sleeping a little longer and eating breakfast which moves my workout further up during the day which is tough because I need the scarce privacy whenever I practice…I’m in need of a shot of ginseng or gingko…

My dad reads my nephew’s name on the newspaper. He’s a second-degree nephew from the in-laws side. His name is implicated in a suicide case last October this year. The victim is the grandson of a prominent politician. I’m trying to remember if I’ve met the boy as I remember playing Cashflow 101 with my nephew’s best friend.

As the story goes, he jumped off from the 30th floor of the Vivere Suites. My nephew is a good kid. As it reads, they were together drinking before he died. My nephew was the last person he spoke to. I messaged his mother this morning and she says he’s doing the rounds of counselors and therapists.

It happened last October but I only found out about it now. I feel bad simply because I’m receptive to it right now and I’m at a loss for words. I’ve felt death before but this feels different…The pain of Helplessness and undeserving Guilt is harder and deeper.

Suicide is hard on a lot of people. As my religious upbringing has taught me, no suicide goes to Heaven. So mean really. Their lack of understanding pushes them to make the worse rationalizations instead of offering love and compassion. The time and manner of death is always a choice. It exacts the very same freedom God has given us to live our lives…. but how do you tell them that?

I can’t do anything. As detached as I think am, a touch of helplessness disarms me. Maybe rightfully so, as I am not suppose to do anything about this journey but provide Understanding and Support. Only Time and Love can restore back Peace and Sanity.

I’m still emotionally detached because it’s never a tough choice for me to let go of some of my old stuff and donate them. As much as there is a lesson for all of us here, I refuse to let it judge me.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

I took a quick trip to the convenience store. I didn’t know really what I was going to get.

I tried avoiding the kids sitting on the floor playing with a bunch of straws. I didn’t want to look at them as I don’t want to feel the guilt of having more than they do. Yet in a very brief glance, I saw that they were barely 2 years old, had no slippers, half naked, had dirt and grime on their skin, hair is disheveled. Their fathers were counting money on a small table. In a second glance, I saw one of the kids having a cleft palate.

I grabbed a bottle of soy milk and head off to the counter. I asked the cash register for two soft ice cream cones and asked them to give it to the kids. It didn’t cost me much.

The fathers were dramatically thankful but they were just trying to be funny. The babies gave me a nice smile before I head out the door. The image of poverty is wiped off their faces. All I can remember now is their smile.

No, I don’t feel guilty. I just wanted to share. Period.

* * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *

Found a lot of great children’s books in my room. The boys don’t want them anymore and I prefer ecologically-sound digital copies. They’re going to The Union Church of Manila’s Children’s Library.

Some of my spiritual reading is going the Lightseeker’s Forum and to friends who have asked for them.

Looking for more stuff…Need to create more space in my life….to receive new things LOL

DM
i always want to talk to her, to be w her to call her to text her but shes too busy. but when were together we’re ok. when she needs help iam there. parang minsan nga naiisip ko and nasasabi ko na sa kanya na she just needs me if she needs me. pag wala di na niya ko naaalala

Me
Being away from her shouldn’t make you sad., if it does that’s something to think about. Love is suppose to make a better person, not less, regardless if that person is near you or not. When was the previous time na nabakante ka?

DM
when we broke up
july
then i had a thing nung aug since she said na meron an din siya
pero di nagwork yung sakin
tapos yung sa kaniya din
pero i still dindt date her after that pero alam mo yun lola parang bumalik parin ako

Me
I meant before you and M

DM
3 yrs ago
more than 3 yrs ago
nalabanan ko na to e
kaso ngayon parang naging aso na naman niya ko
huhu

Me
Why do you like thinking bad thoughts about yourself?

DM
noooo im not
and i dont

Me
Really so what’s this pity party we’re in?

DM
i mean lola
ang hirap di isipin e

Me
isipin what?

DM
im lonely i mean in a day parang nasanay na ko na naguusap kami then magkikita after work so naiisip ko lagi na fuck she doesnt care anymore and it sucks

Me
ok pity party

DM
and i know the best thing to do is just let her be. pero i want attention
i want her attention

Me
you want attention period

DM
yes
heeer

Me
Dig a little deeper here.

DM
lola im closed minded.. explain

Me
If it’s her attention you want, then you beef it out with her. But it seems to be a case of self-validation here because you’re talking to me and not her.
Nothing wrong with that. I’m just making you realize that this is not about her but about you.

DM
lola after the breakup.. ilang beses ko to sinasabi sa kanya

Me
sabi what?

DM
and she tells me na busy lang talaga siya..
na iwant her attention and nahihirapan ako sa situation

Me
Why did you break up again?

DM
busy siya busy ako
pero ako gusto ko lagi nagpapaupdate and nagpapa
nagpapatext
so nasakal siya

Me
keep talking

DM
tapos i tend to get mad pag di niya nasasabi na lalaki pala kasama niya or may kasamang lalaki

Me
go on

DM
minsan id ask her to just study w me rather than going to study groups
tapos napapagawayan namin yun

DM
actually naging culture namin yun
kasi ganun din siya nung college pa ko
pero nung naging super busy siya sa med and she really needed med people around her din to help her.. ayun
nasakal siya

Me
culture?

DM
na maging maupdate sa isat isa
na mahigpit in terms of mga kasama
naging ganun din siya

Me
Can I ask you something?

DM
tapos ngayon kinain ko pride ko kahit nagkalalaki siya and she kept telling me na gustong gusto niya yun
bumalik parin ako
yes lola

Me
Tell me why you think you love her

DM
i dont know… im willing to sacrifice everything anything for her.
thats all i know
but i really dont know why

Me
think about it a little harder

DM
haay

Me
come on, indulge me

DM
cos i think ill never find anyone who can love me accept me take care of me
the same way that she does
and ako rin..
i mean siya na yung parang perfect na gusto kong alagaan gusto ko makasama gusto ko makaaway
lahat
good and bad niya lahat gusto ko

Me
ok…. you’re beginning to sound like a telenovela
but seriously….

DM
hahaha
lola naman ee

Me
do you really think she accepts you right now?

DM
im not sure
really
nilinaw ko e
she wants me around
she loves me i can feel it
i can see it
pero ang gusto niyang set up is.. kung kelan niya ko kelanganin dun lang

Me
but does she accept everything about you and the situation
exactly my point

DM
i dont think so

Me
there you go

DM
what shall i do?
i love her

Me
Look she may love you and you may love her

DM
and im willing to do everything and wait

Me
but both of you are not mature to take it further

DM
i think i can be
you think pag tinantanan ko siya sign of maturity yun for the mean time>?

Me
of course you can be but you’re not right now
sorry but what does tantanan mean?

DM
uhm stop whatever im doing
so what should i do?

Me
yes

DM
im scared lola
like when we broke up
she said shes dating someone diba
then she found out after a few weeks na ako rin
then nagalit siya
and sabi niya sige seseryosohin ko na yung dinadate ko
in short

DM
she expected me to make a move parin
and show her how much i want her
she wants attention as bad as i want it

Me
attention is not the same as love

DM
im scared na pag di na ko ganito maghanap na naman siya

Me
let her show her true colors then
she’ll be doing you a favor

DM
i dont want to gamble im scared…. i believe na ako aayos nito e

Me
Do you know what serendipity means?

DM
yes
hay

Me
Just to let you know I have a degree in metaphysical psychology

DM
WOW
ok so what can you say about the situation

Me
God never meant life to be hard, it’s us who make it hard.

DM
about her me and us

Me
If it’s too much of an effort that it throws you off from what you’re meant to be, then just let it be. Embrace it and let the universe work its magic.
The reason why things are not progressing its because

DM
im so scared of the fuckin what ifs in my brain

Me
you’re coming from fear.

DM
hay..
ikaw ba author ng the secret?
yan din nababasa ko dun e hihi
hay lola
natatakot ako pano kung di kami meant?
i mean

Me
It’s related… LOL

DM
i believe na karma ko to sa mga kasalanan ko nung kami pa
so i choose to push myself

Me
Karma has little to do with it. Don’t use the word karma if you’re a not Buddhist or Hindu LOL

DM
even if shes pushing me harder palayo

Me
It’s ok to push yourself but don’t push from a vanatage point of fear

DM
haha

Me
It has to come from a vantage point of freedom and love
And you being scared is not love

DM
meaning kahit mangulit ako… no matter what happens.. positive lang mindset ko

Me
not that easy…

DM
?

Me
positive mindset is one thing, your state of being is another

DM
how can i do it

Me
Do you think you can allow her to be with someone else yet still look at her with love?
Let me tell you a story. Medyo mahaba.

DM
yea
ganun setup nung may guy shiya
magkasama kami

Me
Me
20 years ago, a guy falls in love with a girl who was going to get married to someone else…

DM
ok

Me
He didn’t step up because he loved her so much that he had to give her a chance to be happy, even if it meant being with someone else.
He lives on the other side of the world yet in spite of that, they keep in touch.
She thinks of him a lot but since he never stepped up, she couldn’t assume anything.
But she respected his decision when it was his turn to get married.
Years apart, cities apart and they meet up occasionally

DM
T_T go on lola

Me
They never wondered why they never had lunch with other people. Just the two of them.
what does T_T mean?

DM
its a crying face see
T_T

Me
ok

DM
then what happened?

Me
They lost contact for a while. She didn’t want him to see her falling apart because her marriage was crumbling. Eventually she recovers after a while and finally gets the courage to meet up with him again.
He was clearly happy to see her. It was like he was floating above his seat. They talk as if nothing happened. As if the distance and the time apart never occured and then he nonchalantly asks her
How do you think I’m doing?

DM
shit shit shit

Me
She says I think you’re life is great but I know you’re happy right now because you’re with me.
The guy was scared when he heard that. Simply because it was true.

DM
im crying now

Me
He’s been hiding it for such a long time. Buried so deep not realizing that he has kept it for far too long.
But one thing he couldn’t deny was how happy she makes him whenever they are together.
And it’s the same for her… All she ever needed from him was for him to tell her that he loved her.

DM
then

Me
She had to wait because back then if ever he had said that, she would have rejected him because she couldn’t see how he fitted in her life. But she’s always known that she loved him but she was too busy looking at her world than what she was feeling. They’re happy together now

DM
fuck
what happened to the guys original wife

Me
That remains to be seen. They’re lives are still complex but whenever they’re together every problem and concern disappear. Everything just happens easily and magically whenever they’re together.

DM
whew
i wanna be mature like him

Me
That’s what I’m trying to say. You’re not mature enough right now. Both of you.

DM
i wanna learn how to let go of her, of my fears, of my insecurities

Me
Start with yourself

DM
ok sige if i do that.. if ever what would i do if she needs me naman.. should i say no?

Me
You have to love yourself before you can love her in the way she needs and wants.
You can say yes for as long as you have no expectations

DM
shit thats so true

Me
It’s your expectations that are killing you

DM
every time lola
everytime na magkasama kami.. i get hurt pag maghihiwalay na then di siya magtetext
hay

Me
you have to learn to accept the situation, it doesn’t mean you have to love her any less
Some people learn to love more when they’re apart.

DM
what if she says na “i dont think you love me. you quit fast.. you dont exert extra effort”
what would i say?

Me
LOL

DM
lolaaaa

Me
You have to respond calmly
Show her that you’re happy to see her but not meddling in her affairs
Happy being with her
Love is effortless
When there is effort, it means you’re doing it to please someone else.
And when you focus on pleasing others, there is only short term gain to be had.
You have to love for her intelligence, for what she believes in, for what she cares about

DM
fuckyea

Me
I get that as a vote of confidence I presume

DM
HELLYEAH!!
i should take down all the things that could make me busy
and make me feel whole as a person

Me
why?

DM
wo anyone’s attention

Me
well done, Dan

DM
para masanay ako na di magisa
until maging effortless na
hay i wanna see you soon and hug you soooo tiggghhhttt

Me
Since you read the secret
do what makes you happy and then happiness will follow it’s as simple as that.

DM
hay
tama
kelangan lang pala sayo galing
lola thank you so much ha for your time and effort to type

Me
LOL
Honestly, I love coaching
Go! Enjoy your life!

DM
thank you lola
labyuuuuuuuu
pag nagfafalter ako immsg kita to keep me burning parin a?

Me
Love you too, sweetie. *hugs*
Anytime.

DM
huuuuuuuugggg

I was concerned because he didn’t want to read the book. After a short passage from the book, he grabs one of his favorite books, Bears in the Night, and starts drawing. Not exactly part of the lesson but something worth noting. Considering my son rarely speaks, his parting shot was a pleasant surprise.